Stream of Consciousness

I hate it how I was just feeling alright 30 seconds ago, but now I'm stuck down in this bog. I hate it when I feel like this - like I'm on the bring of calamity or something. I can definately identify with Megan when she says that sometimes when she looks into my eyes, she fears that she'll wake up from a dream. I feel that way alot. I just get the hang of life and then I get depressed. I think things like "I've got nothing to offer. . ." or "I'm not good enough. . ." or "I'll never be an adequate provider" or "I'm just around until something better shows up." I know that thinking things like that is stupid because they aren't true. I need to pray more. I don't feel spiritual right now. My head hurts. There's nothing I'd rather do than curl up with Megan and just kiss her. I love to hold her. I want everything to be okay for both of us. I want to keep her safe. I want to treat her better than anyone. Lots of work to do soon. Lots of perparation. Lots of stress. Backaches. My back hurts. I'm whining too much.

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^_^ I feel better now.