As I sit and I ponder life, I wonder where I would be if I didn't have her. I mean, I've thought about it alot over the course of our relationship thus far and I've come to a few conclusions:

1) I wouldn't be happy at all.
2) Well, with a number one like that, who needs a two?

I know I have a weird style. I know I'm jealous and annoying. I know that when I try to fix things, I often make them worse, but here's something I wish: I wish I'd never been kissed by anyone else. Is it right to get all regretful over something like that? I can't help it. That's how in love with her I am. I can't get away from it and it pulls me in. Megan's been with me through everything that's happened for over a year now. She's heard me complain, seen me struggle, watched me fight against myself, herself, and other people to prove that I am her man and the only person she is ment to be with. I appreciate her. I cherish her already. ^_^ In other words, I'm glad I know what true love is and that I don't have to wait until we're married to claim that.

It's funny when we fight and quarrel over silly things because that's just it. It doesn't look like we'd have anything else to quarrel about. ^_^; We've gotten better on some things though. Like food. I don't think we've had a real fallout about food in a while. When/if something big does come along, we handle it in the best way we know how: with tears, prayer, and by being sensitive to each other.

I can't beleive all the things we've talked about! As weird as this sounds, I don't think I'll ever get tired of talking about our kid(s), the wedding, where we're goin' on our honeymoon, ect. I've never seen this kind of devotion and motivation. She loves me and I can feel it. I just hope that I do her love justice.

So why get all mushy all of a sudden? Because I can. Because I honestly feel like, ring or no ring, that she is mine and although it may be a little over the top, I see her as that. Mine. Not in the opressive "You've got to do what I say" way, but in the "I'll love and cherish you forever; I'll help you and you can help me" way. ^_^

Your love is amazing and I praise God for you . . .