I'm sort of tired today, but it's okay. The worst part is over. I ended up dropping Hermentutics off of a recommendation from Dr. Horn and Dr. Wilbanks. There's not much more to say about that, other than this will definately make this an easier semester. With having to take summer classes, This makes is much more likely that I'll make that 3.0 by next semester, so my dad should be happy with that.

On the postive side, I get to have some turkish coffee with Dr. Wilbanks on Thursday at 2:45. I also managed to talk to Dr. Bruce today and he told me about the Philosophy Club and basicly begged me to join. He wants me on the debate team; he thinks I'm brilliant. ^_^ I must admit, I needed to hear that because I was feeling pretty worthless from having to drop a class. I just feel stupid most of the time. I used to be an acedemic overacheiver and there's no reason I can't do it again. I hate feeling so lazy all the time. ^_^ That's another reason I'm happy to have Megan: she motivates me to try my best, but she doesn't try to kill me when I'm struggling. I really, really apreciate that and it only motivates me more.

I might give this philosophy thing a try though. I like getting to speak my mind and I think that speaking in general will give me an oppertunity to shine a little where I had been ridiculed before ( mainly because I get stage fright like crazy ^^; I find that funny for someone being called to do what I do).

I've been worried about Megan alot lately. I don't like that a large portion of her stress is comming from work. Not to mention that the past few weeks haven't been well at all for her. I get bummed out when I can't do anything for her. I hate being "far, far away." I hate that I can't hold her the way I want to hold her now. ^_^;

But all will work itself out for the greater part of God's glory soon enough! I'm really thankful for everything that Jesus has helped me with and I'm amazed at his faithfulness when I seem to be forever falling away. One day though, I'll get to touch his face. I've very thankful for Megan and I just wish I could explain to her what she means to me. I see so much of myself in her (not to sound narcissistic [I know it's spelled wrong. . .and there's a spell check that I don't want to use, so nya! ] ), and even though she scares me to death sometimes, I know that I couldn't be happy with anyone else.

Oh! And here's a little journal poetry. This came about when it started to drizzle this morning.

The rain fell fast from heaven to kiss the lips
Of one like me. Only, I was not the one she choose.
Envy, a green desire, would not let my lips be still.
(Jealosy caused a blush to accent my disallusioned face. . .)

I'm working on your kiriban too. ^_^ <3