I get frustrated at the possiblity of failure too, but I beleive this will work. It hurt me when you said you couldn't trust me because you don't need to beleive the lies you keep telling yourself. God has given me strength because he's doing a great work within you - one that requires you to be completely broken beyond everything you've ever known. I know how that feels and that's why He's placed me in your life. You haven't ever been alone and you never will be. I must admit, I have done things that if I had known what the future would hold, I would've never done them out of respect for you. Everyone feels like that. Everyone is dark, depraved, and seeking after nothing but themselves. But the Lord has called us to be an example. I'm sorry if I've ever failed to show Christ to you on a daily basis. God has taught me alot about myself through you and I am stronger now because I need to be strong to support you, just like you supported me. I know you get jealous easy, but I told you that I would change for you. I ment it. If there's any way I can possibly love you better, I'd want you to tell me. There's so much I want to do for you. . .there's so much I want to give you. I've let go of everything else because I honestly feel that nothing will be able to compare to you. I don't want to scare you away. I've been reluctant to say how I really feel because I'm afraid I might have moved deeper than you think I have. I told you earlier: You are my soulmate. I beleive it. You'll have to kill me to get rid of me now. You are the only person that can hurt me, but I know that the person that hurts me isn't who you really are. I'm willing to hurt for you. I get nervous at the prospect of you turning back into your old self. I don't want you to ever look back at anyone else. I don't want you to ever think of anyone else . I'm alot more jealous than I let on (I even get jealous over stupid stuff, like talking to Jon for instance), but God has taught me to deal with my jealousy. I don't want to constantly hurt you by doing something I don't realize. I want to be perfect for you and I know I will be. I've got alot more to learn about you, how to treat you, how to help you more and more. If you run, I will chase you. I can't break that promice, you know?

Please forgive me for being up late tonight, I had to get this off of my chest. I love you more than you might ever know. I look forward to seeing you tomarrow.

Rest tonight. May the Lord wipe every tear from your eyes. May his Spirit reside in you and clense you. May he remind you of your purpose and fill you with hope at your reward. His promices will never fail you. Wait on Him. Remember His sweet voice that first called you and start new every day. We will be perfect through Christ. He will teach us to be perfect for one another.

I love you. ^_^